Let me just start off by saying that I am here! I have been here and I will be here…if only all of you could hear! Not only have I not really had a means of getting out, I’ve just been a little paranoid about staying here, because of the way the world is going.

If I was truly “out there”, not just here, then I would be subject to a lot of abuse or violence or threats of violence. It’s been better to just lay low, since that is my only option anyways.

Today I meet with a woman who is running a group on being an authentic self that starts soon. I am going to try harder to do that, as in be my authentic self, not just for myself, but for the world at large! What I need to do is sort through my life a little bit while figuring out what my priorities are. I hope this course I am about to take, along with this blog that I am keeping, helps me to do that.

I had just applied to two MFA programs to help me get more comfortable sharing my experiences as well as getting another book out of my life since my other books are not published or publishable. I have so much work to do, and although I am finally doing it, I need to figure out what is more important. My options are getting more writing done or just fine tuning the writing that I have done. In other words, should I “keep climbing” or “flatten out” a bit?

This course I am about to take should help me make sense of the dilemma that I am in. I hope to get good coaching and group coaching to learn how to be more of my authentic self, living with less secrets and more of an ability to share my truth.