My course on being my authentic self starts tomorrow. I had done a white rose ceremony with the woman that leads the group. I am feeling very refreshed, not to mention more centered. It’s just hard not to get distracted over all the possibilities, with a personality that seems to overflow from my pitcher, due to having such a big personality with not enough cups to fill.

This is the week I have been waiting for. The holidays were almost like an intermission from many projects that I was working on. Now I can get back to them, with a bunch of new opportunities too that I have been waiting for.

Today I wrote an article on the neuroticism of transphobia, a suggestion that I got in my dream. I submitted it already and so we’ll see where it goes. I also started that support group for exploitation survivors. I also start class next week, just not grad school.

On a radically different note, I also decided to apply to be governor, as it makes more sense to try and get on the news, rather than contributing to all the spiritual fluff that I am resistant about contributing to on account of being too much of a social scientist.

I recently canceled two podcasts that I was going to do on account of just not identifying much with the new age genre. After all, I was a social science major. It’s hard for me to identify as overly mystical, which is what a lot of spiritual content is. Now that I am sorting through my possibilities more rationally, I see an opportunity for me to get into politics now that Tim Walz is stepping down.

Although I have a job interview to be a commissioner with city council, getting my name on the ballot for governor might be more worth my time. It could lead to speaking gigs, as well as compliment this blog, about stepping into my authentic self, as a political figure, not just a religious one.

I am excited to start my course tomorrow. I do not really know what to expect so much from it, but I do know that the spiritual fluff has and does benefit me immensely. I just can’t really see myself thriving in the community as a leader. I am not so mystical. I don’t really fit in so much. Even though it’s helpful, I want to seek opportunities elsewhere, as the CIA informant that I am and have been for the last decade, even if I have long outgrown it by now.